Monday, August 22, 2011

Tipping Point

Frannie June 2011

I don't want the power of life and death.  I don't want to be the one to decide.  But it has come to this and as I watch her struggle through her daily life, I know this is a hole she can't climb back out of.  She has lost interest in food and water and just spends her days dozing uncomfortably, waiting for death.

The worst part is her plaintive meow.  She, who was always so vocal and assertive now sounds as weak as a kitten.

It rends my heart.

7 comments:

Fuzzy Tales said...

I'm so sorry. I had to make this decision for my beloved Annie this past February. Well, she made it for me, it was so clear she didn't want to continue. But it would have been easier if she had a clear-cut illness, but at only 10-ish, she just went downhill and all the vet $$$$ later couldn't determine why. I never ever ever want to play "god" again, but alas I have two boys still with me (I hope for many years).

You both are in my thoughts and I'm sending universal healing Light, wishing you both Blessings and Peace.

-Kim

Laura said...

Thanks, Kim. I know you and other readers here understand the pain.
There just is a point where the body cannot sustain... She has told me in all the cat ways that she wants to go, that there are no more good days for her. It is my selfishness that grieves because I have so enjoyed her company, because I will miss her something fierce.
It helps so much to know you understand.

Cat said...

Sometimes the decision to help them leave is the last thing we can do for our beloved companions. I know it is so very hard...

Laura said...

I kept hoping something would turn around for her. Like Kim's Annie, I don't really know what is killing her. We have been treating her for liver failure but we can't stop her deterioration. At this point, she has nothing left to fight with and just wants to go on.
I know this is the right decision but that doesn't make it easy. I've made this decision a dozen times over the years and it never gets easier. I just have gotten better at knowing when the end has come--an expertise I really didn't want when I started out with lots of kitties and plenty of time ahead of us.

Morgen said...

Bless you for the life you've given her. Love her through the transition. When it's clear that she can't go on, and it would be cruel to make her continue, lovingly help her across the Rainbow Bridge. She will await your crossing with purrs....

Mama Bear said...

Dear sweet Frannie...she must have so much love in her for you that she wants to stay with you as long as she can.

I look over at our cats and see how the passage of time is starting to wash over them..and it only seems like the other day each of them came into our lives. Whatever length of time we have with them, I will treasure it all.

Jan's Funny Farm said...

So sorry your Frannie was going downhill. There are no more posts on her after this one. We assume she has left for the bridge but she might still be fighting. We don't know for sure which, so we'll just send a hug, purrs and woofs of comfort.