Friday, August 14, 2009

Continuing



The household seems diminished without her presence.

Denny remarked last week that the house seemed so much quieter--almost dull--without Punkin's energy. Even when she was ailing, she managed to fill the house and we were always aware of her--where she was and what she was doing--on a subliminal level. She was the dominant cat in our home. Her life-force was the warm beacon that defined the center of "home" for us and now the cats seem directionless and lethargic without her serving as our binding energy.

I had been prepared to lose her for the last year or more but her loss continues to hit me in all the small ways. I catch myself thinking that she is just off somewhere sleeping in a favorite hiding place, or catch an edge-of-the-eye glimpse of reddish fur or a particular shaggy coat and forget just for a moment that she is gone.

Not that she will ever be gone because she lives in my mind so vivid and clear that I feel her presence still burning warm in the heart of the life we shared.

5 comments:

Jan's Funny Farm said...

Yes, those that are gone will forever live in memory. And even though memories can bring tears, they can also bring smiles.

Anna said...

All I can say is I do understand. This fall will be 2 years since our Mishka left us, and she was like an empress ruling over us, human and cats alike. She taught the newcomers to walk backwards in her presence - maybe I mentioned that before. I miss her still so much - my Miskymoo. Hugs over the miles to you Laura - these creatures are so special....

Meggie said...

Thinking of you and wishing you fond memories and peace.

Cats~Goats~Quotes said...

Sending hugs to you Laura.
Heart cats sure do leave a big empty place in our home and our lives.

MmeBenaut said...

Oh Laura dear, I am so sad for you and Denny and all of the other cats who are missing your beautiful Punkin. xxx