Continuing



The household seems diminished without her presence.

Denny remarked last week that the house seemed so much quieter--almost dull--without Punkin's energy. Even when she was ailing, she managed to fill the house and we were always aware of her--where she was and what she was doing--on a subliminal level. She was the dominant cat in our home. Her life-force was the warm beacon that defined the center of "home" for us and now the cats seem directionless and lethargic without her serving as our binding energy.

I had been prepared to lose her for the last year or more but her loss continues to hit me in all the small ways. I catch myself thinking that she is just off somewhere sleeping in a favorite hiding place, or catch an edge-of-the-eye glimpse of reddish fur or a particular shaggy coat and forget just for a moment that she is gone.

Not that she will ever be gone because she lives in my mind so vivid and clear that I feel her presence still burning warm in the heart of the life we shared.

Comments

Jans Funny Farm said…
Yes, those that are gone will forever live in memory. And even though memories can bring tears, they can also bring smiles.
Anna said…
All I can say is I do understand. This fall will be 2 years since our Mishka left us, and she was like an empress ruling over us, human and cats alike. She taught the newcomers to walk backwards in her presence - maybe I mentioned that before. I miss her still so much - my Miskymoo. Hugs over the miles to you Laura - these creatures are so special....
Meggie said…
Thinking of you and wishing you fond memories and peace.
Sending hugs to you Laura.
Heart cats sure do leave a big empty place in our home and our lives.
MmeBenaut said…
Oh Laura dear, I am so sad for you and Denny and all of the other cats who are missing your beautiful Punkin. xxx

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